I am riddled with guilt!
Yesterday I snapped.
I had enough of Kaylin's constantly whining for everything! she has become so cheeky and because she's so cute she gets away with it and yesterday I said "No more!".I smacked her and put her on her "naughty mat" in the bathroom.
I could hear her screaming and yelling "MUMMY!!" over and over and I didn't budge. I was so angry, I had enough. I was adament that she would spend her full 3 minutes in time out.
I have an egg timer in the bathroom for such occassions and I didn't even bother switching in on.
Eventually I could hear Kaylin in the bathroom sobbing and trying to switch the egg time on. Once the bell went off she kept saying "I'll be good, Mummy! I'll be GOOD!".I didn't budge.I made her stay in there for three minutes.When I went in eventually she was blinded by snot and tears. I explained to her why she was put in the naughty mat. I made her apologies. She hugged me and through her snot and tears said "Sowwy Mummy".Gosh I feel like utter CRAP today thinking back on her little sad face. I can only imagine how I looked through her eyes - shouting and screaming like a banshee. A giant witch, flinging her arms around bellowing at the top of her lungs and eventually smacking her. I must've frightened the shit out of her.I wish I could take it all back.